feeling so down.. wierd feelings n thinking..
dont think others would noe wad im talking about in this blog entry.. mabbe till some part, mi myself also dont understand.. anyway juz a entry for mi to vent out all the thinking but not pointing towards anything..
even before i step in.. i noe it is gonna be messy.. or mabbe more than juz messy but chaotic.. i noe i face not juz difficulties but alot alot of problems.. some problems are so tricky that i dont know how to face it.. solve it.. even before the start.. i already noe it is unavoidable.. but i dun escape.. thinking to test myself? i dont know..
things that i find wrong.. i cant sae.. coz it will lead to another bigger prob.. but if i dont sae out.. the one suffering is ownself..
tears flow out after each suffering.. however i cannot say no after i step in.. because it will let someone down.. mabbe 1 or mabbe more.. and mabbe bring joy to some... but definatly gonna disappoint a few too.. but will i be disappointed if i give up like this? or will i be happy if i leave?
i feel so weak.. i don't know y i feel like giving up so easily.. mabbe im juz too weak.. weak person.. where we aim high nice ending.. i tried.. i realli did tried veri hard.. giving my best..
Monday, February 25, 2008
£ove Happens 